Tuesday, August 28, 2012

slow down and enjoy life.

I'm really not an ungrateful person at all.  
In fact, I appreciate all aspects of what I have and feel blessed to have been so lucky in life, but at times I think I take it for granted.  Sometimes I feel as though I am never satisfied, always wanting more and feeling that there are parts of me that are lacking and it gets me down

I don't know what my deal has been lately, but I've been kind of feeling depressed.  I'm sure I'll come out of it and I know life will go on, but it's such a bad feeling.  I can't pinpoint one certain thing, but it's just a mixture of things.

My allergies are the worst they have been in my whole life.  I am miserable every day.  The other day I had to remind myself that things could be worse; I could be waking up every morning with cancer and not allergies.  Get over it.  Be glad you are healthy!

Over the last month, I have learned of three ladies my age that have been diagnosed with cancer.  Three??  I just cannot believe it.  That is something that just rocks me and terrifies me.  How awful.  These ladies' lives have been completely turned upside down and changed forever.  Actually, one of them is pregnant with twins.  How sad.

I am lucky.  

I really have nothing to complain about at all.  It is the ugly, selfish, jealous person inside of me that begs for more.  One of these days God is going to give me something to complain about if I don't relax and enjoy the life I have. 

Life's not fair or easy, I do know that. 

I know I am not the only one that feels like this.  How do you all overcome this? 


angie on maui said...

You are definitely NOT the only person to feel like this; I think it is only human nature that we want, crave and desire more. And it's not even that we aren't grateful for what we DO have; I just think society has set such an unattainable goal on "extras" that bring us one step closer to "happiness".

Sometimes when I get stuck in a rut like this, I do volunteer work (ie: feeding the homeless) or I read about missionary work in impoverished countries and it immediately sets me straight; we really DO have so much to be grateful for. I can't even fathom what life is like for those who don't even have running water, for example.

I think this post is such a great reminder for all of us to count our blessings and yes, slow down and enjoy life. Your awareness and ability to articulate this already puts you one step ahead of the rest. Thanks for sharing your thoughts on this!

Rachel Buttner said...

Everyone goes through these times. I recommend focusing on things that are bigger than yourself. Taking angie's advice to volunteer is great. Get into nature without getting the sniffles (aquarium anyone?). Just getting up early and watching the sunrise might help boost your mood a little bit. Challenge the day!! Let it know you're there and you're alive! (with a few allergies) :)


Stacia said...

I resonate so well with this. I get angry too, and stop to "check myself". We DO have it good.

I hope your friends get healthy!


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