Tuesday, May 7, 2013
AGING. why am i scared of it?!
there are many, many things that i am afraid of in life, but for some reason aging ranks high on my list. not only do i not want to appear older, lose my youth, have the dreaded wrinkles and gray hair, along with saggy skin, but i think i'm afraid that my bucket list won't be complete.
i know i'm not the only one that feels life is flying faster and faster each day. i seriously do not know where the time goes, but i am one that tends to live in the past unfortunately. i always think of, 'shoulda, woulda, coulda,' or 'if only...' that tends to breed negativity, but there are always things that go undone.
of course i feel i get wiser as i age, so part of me longs to see what the future holds, but insecurities are also present. aging is just a scary, unavoidable part of life no matter how you look at it. i am very excited and blessed for each and every day, therefore i try to have unwasted days. hopefully some day i can come to terms with the whole process, but until i reach that point, i will live in fear of each day as well. kinda sad, really, huh?!