I saw a quote this evening that I wanted to reflect on as I think it definitely portrays my day.
This morning when I woke up I knew today wasn't going to be good when I saw Sandea, one of my furbabies. She has had cancer for a while now and she hasn't really been affected by it too much, until just a few days ago, refer to this post.
She just hasn't been herself - no appetite, hadn't been playing with the other dogs, super lethargic, and just different.
I knew this day would come, but I just didn't realize it would be so soon and frankly, I wasn't ready to lose her. We found her only about 8 months ago, but it seems like she's been with us longer because she has brought us such joy.
So anyway, she's just been going downhill. Fast.
This morning she looked as if death was definitely with us so I called the vet and planned to take her out there at 4 to be put to sleep. Tear. I spent my entire morning in tears, and trust me, I'm a pretty unattractive crier.
Well lo and behold, when it's time to go to the vet, she does a 180 and it seems she has changed. The vet tells us she has a horribly high fever, dehydration, and a bad infection somewhere, but more than likely this can be treated with fluids and antibiotics. This probably isn't related to her cancer (:
We are home with her!
So when I saw the above quote, it made me realize that I definitely take things in life for granted. My dogs, especially.
I always think they're going to be waiting for me when I get home and in bed with me at nite. But this morning, I knew Sandea was experiencing her last day with me in our house.
I know there are plenty of other countless things I need to be more appreciate of and realize they are special.
Eric. My family. My health. Love. Home. My Car. Everything.
So starting tomorrow, I will begin by being thankful for the things I have been given and thank God for all I have. Things could definitely be much worse, and they really are quite good.
I realized this morning that my life was definitely going to change when I got home from the vet. Things would be so much different without my sweet dog around and it killed me to think of that.
But here I with her again and I'm cherishing it.
I am lucky today.
Tomorrow will be the chance to change my life.